"married?"

The other night Kayden SLAMMED his head into my nose (it still hurts!). So hard that I cried and ran to the other room so he wouldn't see me. He comes and starts climbing on me and begging me to go back to his room to read his bedtime stories. Kyle proceeds to get kind of cranky with him and tell him to leave me alone b/c I was hurt. So after I pulled myself back together we went to read stories. After stories we were laying together in his bed and he said, "mommy why was daddy so mad at me for hurting you?", I didn't really know what to say because daddy wasn't "really" mad as he said, just a little stern. So I said "bc I'm his wife and he doesn't like it when I'm hurt." He then had to ask me when we got married, "Did you get married when I married Carrie?" (yes, he still thinks HE married Carrie...not his uncle Mark!), I said no, we got married 6 years ago, before you were born. He then stood up in his bed and danced in a circle and said "did you do that when you got married?", and I said, "why is that what you do when you get married?" he said "yes". And I laughed. So funny to me that he thinks dancing in a circle is what you do when you get married (especially because he was JUST at his Uncle's wedding!). But I love that in his 3 year old mind, you dance in a circle and get married:)

Toddles....

My baby Breck took 8 steps to me on Thursday, October 21. We were outside and he was holding onto the pinwheel, I just randomly set him on his feet and walked back a little bit and asked him to come and to my surprise he did. I couldnt' believe it. The day before Kayden had tried to get him to walk to him and he would just plop down on his knees and crawl to him, so I was expecting his first steps to be days/weeks or so away. But he must have just gotten the courage and done it. I could tell he was "ready" for awhile now, but he just wouldn't go for it. They were 8 tiny little steps and he was SO proud of himself! Mommy cheered and cried and laughed all at once. I was so happy for him because he was so proud of himself but inside I was kind of sad that he was taking this leap to big boy land. We called daddy (who was on his way home from work and was pretty sad he missed it) and told him the big news. When daddy got home he showed him his new moves and walked 3 steps to him. Since Thursday he has been walking 3-5 steps pretty frequently when we ask him to walk to us or just as he plays when he doesn't realize we are watching. And yesterday he walked 12 steps to Kayden which made Kayden SO happy that he walked more steps to him than he did to mommy. I'm SO happy I was there to witness his first steps and that I wasn't out shopping or something random and missed this big monumental moment in my little guys life. Congrats baby boy! You are so cute with your tiny little steps and the big smile you put on your face as you wobble towards us! Love you!

"I Love You Kayden"

Today Kayden played. With a buddy, at the park. This is big for my little man who left his diaper friends when we moved from AZ to KS. He had friends he had known since he was too small to move on his own, other than a roll across the floor. Friends who he learned to talk with, crawl with, walk with, and get into trouble with. Those little ones have forever carved a spot in my heart, we pray for them daily. We think of them often. We love them big time. They are "his diaper friends". I am so very happy for each little friend he had in Arizona. Together they learned the very early dance of sharing, playing, fighting and loving someone outside of your little family circle. Those mommies were my village when I was first becoming a mommy. They were there for me to cry with. Laugh with. And discover who I was as a mommy. Being a Mommy....This brand new thing to me that was more important than anything else I had ever done in my life.

And now we moved. Although I was very happy with this move b/c it brought me back to my beloved seasons and closer to our families. Leaving our friends was hard. (and I do miss the shopping too:) So Kayden and I have gotten to carve our way through this together. Making new friends and finding a village that works for us in this new, very different place. This has at times been hard for my little guy. He misses his familiar. He misses those littles that he saw at the very least weekly, usually every couple days. But preschool has helped with the transition. He is now talking about his new friends almost everyday and I can tell his heart is healing from the loss of his AZ home and "family". He is telling me less often that he wants to go see his friends in AZ and more often that he wants to play with his school friends. In a way this makes me sad, that they are becoming less of a focal point, but I know it's healthy and what is needed.

So today after preschool we went to the park with Andrew. Andrew is apparently his best buddy at school, along with Cooper, Mia and Taylor. It's interesting watching these friendships develop outside of mommies helping them form. When your in diapers, your mommy chooses who she has fun with and you then "get" to play with those littles. When school starts.....the kiddos pick their friends and then the mommies "get" to hang out during playdates. Funny how that works:) Luckily for me Andrew's mommy couldn't be any sweeter. She and I could talk for hours so I'm glad Kayden and Andrew clicked so well:)

At the park as we were going to see the geese, Andrew looked back at Kayden and said "I love you Kayden." and Kayden in return said "I love you too Andrew". My heart melted. For two reasons, 1) I LOVE that they are so innocent that they can tell another "guy" that they "love" him and 2) My little man is adjusting and will be okay. He is finding local besties that will make his days happier and I am so very happy about that!

(on a side......I look over at the park and he and Andrew are at the drinking fountain drinking out of a plastic bubble container they found on the ground. That put this mama's OCD into OVER DRIVE! I was that crazy mom screaming across the park for them to stop. Hope that doesn't make Andrew's mommy re-think her friendship with me:) Funny the things kiddos will do with another little one at their side encouraging them! Ewwww Ewww Ewww!!)

Booty!

Pretty sure Breck has the cutest booty around.

"MOOOOOOOOOOO"

Today as we were driving in to town Kayden told me "roll down the window mom so I can talk to the cows". So I did. And I hear "MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" over and over. Then he says "do you think they heard me? do you think they understand me? why aren't they talking back?"
Awww the imagination of a 3 year old is the best. The things he comes up with keep me laughing daily. So blessed to have that little soul warming my heart every moment of every day.

Fifi

Is a trooper! She now has 2 littles chasing her around the house and terrorizing her. The boys decided to brush her.....and she actually let them for awhile. She is a good doggie for sure! I love that the boys are now becoming partners in crime sometimes.....lots more to come. I can't wait until I catch them scheming together, then I will know that their bond is secure:) My little brothers and I schemed daily and loved every minute of it!

Pumpkin Patch

I am behind in posts...so here is our pumpkin patch post. We went Saturday October 9th to Roca Berry Farm Pumpkin patch. The pumpkin patch was super cute. Full of fall festivities and of course lots of orange pumpkins. The boys had a ton of fun playing in the hay, riding on the train, visiting the petting zoo, watching the Hillbilly Pig Races, going through the haunted house, riding on the hayrack ride and choosing pumpkins. The day was a little warmer than I had hoped but was a perfect fall day with our little family of 4.