For the past 3 years, 7 months.....

28 weeks pregnant with Brecken

36 weeks preggo with Kayden

I have been either pregnant or nursing. Crazy. Not sure what made me realize that. Maybe that Kayden is only a little over a month away from being 3! 3 years, 7 months since my body was my own. Some women don't like that. Or get anxious to "have their body back to themselves". Me the eternal mommy, who could probably be Michelle Duggar if Kyle would let me feels like once you become a mommy your body is never your own again. You will forever be a lap to sit on, a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, a head to caress, a kiss to give, a hug to wrap around. You are not your own anymore. You are entertwined amongst those little people walking around holding onto your heart. So the fact that I've been pregnant or nursing for the past 3 years, 7 months actually just makes me smile. It is a long time but compared to a lifetime, it's not much at all. And to clarify further, 3 years, 7 months since I have had more than one alchoholic beverage:) Haha, 8 years ago as I turned 21 I would have never imagined that my "drinking" days would be over so soon!
Love you baby boys, so glad that you are the reason I don't get to claim my body as my own.

"Grandpa Hingst"

On Thursday we were playing outside and you were in your cozy coupe and Breck was in the red car. You were "in a car accident" and mommy was the police officer. I was writing you a ticket and asking you for your name, "Kayden" and I said, and your last name sir?, and you said "Grandpa Hingst". So we kept playing and I'd say "oh, okay Kayden Hingst" and model your actual name. You'd have another accident and I'd ask your name again and it would be "Grandpa Hingst" everytime we got to the last name part. I loved it!:) Too cute!

Good Morning!

What better way to wake up than baby Breck smiling and cooing on my left side and Kayden tickling my arm on my right. Sandwiched between my 2 favorites is the best. I just love my littles so much and I love snuggling with them in my bed!

Thank you!

Thank you Jesus, for blessing me with the opportunity to be at home with my babies. Because of that blessing today I got to ride on a big ship through the ocean to see Santa! All because of the imagination of my little guy. I also got told that I was Kayden's best friend:) And I got to listen to Breck giggle hysterically while Kayden pushed him in his swing on our swingset. What more could a mama or girl ask for?

6 months

Your 2nd type of food....sweet potatoes, not sure what to think of them!


Aww, baby boy. I told you take to take it slow on your mama. To not grow up very fast because I couldn't handle it. And you didn't listen! I turned around and my tiny newborn snuggled in my arms is now a big 6 month old, rolling all around, sitting up on your own, and eating big boy food. I think with your 2nd baby time goes 2x as fast, because you can't spend all day staring at them like you could with your first. You have other kiddos to chase around, so time just flies. Don't get me wrong baby boy, there are plenty of moments when I just stare at you. My eyes are drawn to your chubby little cheeks and your rolly little arms. There are many times when you fall asleep in my arms and I don't put you down. I just hold you, soak you in and stare into your sleepy eyes. Those are the moments of a lifetime, the ones I will never regret spending that way and the ones I can never get back. I love everything about you, your sweet baby smell, your calm way about you, your big, gorgeous smile, your contagious belly laugh. You are so special to me Brecken Cole. God made you just for our little family, he knew you belonged to us long before we did. You were made in His perfection and I thank Him everyday for you. We are just so very blessed that we "get" you for now. That we get to help you become the amazing person you are meant to be. I can already tell you will do big things baby boy. You have such a happy soul, people are drawn to you, you make them happy and that makes me happy.
At 6 months.....

-you weight 20 pounds! Helping mommy get buff!
-you can sit up, although you will still fall back or to the sides sometimes if you decide you want to reach for something
-roll, squirm and move all around to get to where you want
-eat once a day, 1-2 ice cubes of food. (just started at 6 months, so far you've had bananas, sweet potatoes, peas, apples, and bananas) You get very messy when you eat and usually go right in the bath!
-have one tiny tooth that popped through on Monday, May 10th. Didn't even know you were teething, not extra fussy at all.
-are a very happy baby! Smiles, giggles and laughs fill your day
-Coo and goo alot. Say Mama and dada but don't attach meaning to them yet. Say the G, K and B sound too.
-love to swing in your swing on our big swing set. Love it even more if brother is the one pushing you! You just laugh and laugh in that swing!
-Love your bath!
-Love Fifi, get really excited when she gets close to you, like to pet and touch her
-Like to be read to and look at books, can sit through brother's big boy books and bat at the pages and try and pull the book into your mouth.
-are good on car rides!! (yay!!! this is very exciting to mommy!)
-Love to play outside on a blanket with some toys, grabbing at the grass, looking at the trees.
-Like going on walks in the Ergo or in our double jogging stroller with brother sitting next to you.
-Love your jumperoo, jump like crazy in it. Your already at the top of the slots and are barely not too tall for it! Won't be able to use it for much longer at all.
-wear 6-12 month clothes and they fit you JUST right, won't fit much longer!
-Wear size 3 pamper diapers
-Nurse on demand about every 3-4 hours a day and sometimes once during the night
-sleep in your crib during naps and in bed curled up next to mommy at night
-love happy baby organic puffs, starting to figure out the pincher grasp to get them into your mouth:)
-LOVE mum mums!

You are just a delight Breck. We all love you to pieces and are having so much fun watching you grow! Love you to the moon and back a million times little man!

Even Ogres co-sleep:-)

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One more baby and this is what our bed will look like! Kayden was sleeping in his bed until around 5am or so before baby Breck arrived. Well.....he knows Breck is in our bed and of course doesn't want to be left out (and how can I blame him, I would be bummed too if I knew the whole family was in a big comfy bed except for me). So of course when his little feet come trampling into our room around midnight or 2am or 4am or if we are lucky 7am, we let him sleep in the middle. I know it is just for a short time in our life as a little family with itty bitties so we don't mind. "Let them be little, let them sleep in the middle":) It does get pretty cramped with Daddy, Mommy, Breck and Kayden but we are looking into investing in a bigger bed to give us all more spreading room.
Our morning snuggles are the best. Kayden is on my right side, Breck is on my left and I get to be in the middle of my 2 favortie boys. I wake up to a big smile from Breck and a tickle from Kayden. Pretty sure there is no better way to start your day!

My 3rd Mother's Day!

I really can't believe that I've been a mommy now for almost 3 years. I dreamed of becoming a mom as long as I can remember. I played with dolls and had entire imaginary families. I remember wondering what my babies would look like, imagining being pregnant and feeling that tiny life within my own. I couldn't wait to have babies all to myself. Babies that were attached to me the most, wanted me when they were sad or happy or just saw me in a room. I couldn't wait to be that person to a little life. And now, I'm that person to 2 little lives. Two littles smile when I walk in the room, look for my face when they wake from a nap and kiss me before drifting off into dreamland. And it's better. Better than I could have ever pictured in my mind. Better than any mommy could have ever described. It is the best feeling ever. Being a mommy is what I was meant to do. I am sure it is why God put me here. To take care of these little souls, hold them, rock them, and smother them in kisses. Give them all the love I have to give and then give more. And somehow you always find more as a mother, even on the really long, tiring days, they just have to look at you a certain way and your scoul turns to a giggle and you can't help but scoop them up into your arms.

This year was also my first mother's day with my amazing little Breck. He of course brought me tons of smiles that day and was his happy little self the whole day through (even on the 3.5 hour drive home that night....and he cut his first tooth th next day and we never would have even known he was teething!?!?)! This year I also got to spend Mother's day with the person that made me want to be a mom, my mom. I couldn't have asked for a better mom. After being a mom and truely knowing all a mother does for her children, you love your mom in a whole new way because they did all you do for your children for you. There is nothing like a mom.

The day started with Starbucks of course, a nice lunch out with the fam, and then we went to Rachelle's graduation from Kearney Catholic. Afterwards we got to spend the afternoon with the whole family at Janine's house eating lots of yummy food. Being around my mom and aunties, the best moms I know made Mother's day complete.

And the presents.....Kayden made me a flower arrangement at my dad's work with grandma at a little workshop for kiddos and I LOVE it because he made it and Kyle finally ordered me my necklace! My neck no longer feels naked (yay!!), I now have my 2 littles close to my heart always. And my mama got me a hanging flower pot and a gift card. So I was a very spoiled girl on mother's day. It was a fantastic day with fabulous people!